How Can I Keep From Singing?

I think this is the first time in a long time I have no idea how to start. A lot has happened in the past week... a lot of painful memories and confusing events. When bad things happen, I tend to get somewhat introspective and reserved as I try to sort them out in my mind after I talk to people about them. But something I've learned in the past week is that not everything can be understood. Choices people make, actions people take, and things God allows can't always be comprehended. And that's what hurts so much. So I turn to people that can say what I'm feeling way better than I can. And I generally find them in songs.

I don't pretend to know everything. I don't pretend to grasp why God chooses to move the way that He moves, and why it tends to cause us so much pain. But I find comfort in these words that others have written in times of distress. As I've lain awake at night, trying desperately to find some peace of mind, these songs have gently rocked me to sleep, knowing that I rest in God's grace, and our suffering lasts for but a moment.

Grace- Phil Wickham
The sky is gray, and the light is far,
The sea is a rage within my heart
I turn my sight to the crashing waves
I cry in the night just to be saved
'Cause I need eyes to be my guide,
I need a voice that's louder than mine
I need hope, and I need You, 'cause I can't do this alone

Grace I call Your name, o won't Your smile fall down on me
I'm cracked and dry, on bended knee
O sweet Grace, rain down on me! I need You, Grace.

I pray for dawn, a new day to live
I pray for mercy only Jesus gives
The darkness falls and a million cry
I believe over all there's a greater Light shining for us
'Cause I need eyes to be my guide
I need a voice that's louder than mine,
I need hope, and I need You, 'cause I can't do this alone

I Will Wait For You There- Phil Wickham
I will wait for You there, down on my knees where I met You
Give You all of my cares, find the grace to hold onto now
I'm calling for You
I will wait for You there, far from the world and its violence
It's left me broken and bare, I need to hear You in the silence now
I'm calling for You

And with outstretched arms, I will sing out melodies
And my beating heart will pour out a symphony
Hallelujahs in the morning, hallelujahs in the night
I will wait for You as long as I have life

I will wait for You there, down on my knees where I met You
'Cause life is a war fought with tears, but You are the strength I hold onto now
I'm calling for You

It Is Well With My Soul
When peace like a river attendeth my way
When sorrows like sea billows roll,
Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say
It is well, it is well with my soul

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come
Let this blessed assurance control
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate
And has shed His own blood for my soul

My sin, O the bliss of this glorious thought
My sin, not in part but the whole
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend!
Even so, it is well with my soul.

I Will Lift My Eyes- Bebo Norman
God, my God, I cry out,
Your beloved needs You now
God be near, calm my fears and take my doubts
Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in

I will lift my eyes to the Maker of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer of the ocean's raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You

God, my God, let mercy sing
A melody over me
God right here, all I bring is all of me
Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in

'Cause You are and You were and You will be forever
The Lord that I need to save me
'Cause You fashioned the earth and You hold it together, God
So hold me now.

The Light Will Come- Phil Wickham
To the one with the wounded heart, years of fighting have left you scarred
Wait, the Light will come.
To the one with the distant eyes, all this crying has left you dry
Wait, the Light will come. Wait, the Light will come.

Lift your eyes, the Sun has overcome the night
Come alive as we shine in Love's true light.

Here is laughter in all the tears, here is courage to face your fears
Look, the Light has come.
So rise, you daughters and stand, you sons, claim the victory that Jesus won
Look the Light has come. Look, the Light has come.

Lift your eyes, the Son has overcome the night
Come alive as we shine in Love's sweet light

Great Is Thy Faithfulness
Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father
There is no shadow of turning with Thee
Thou changest not, Thy compassions they fail not
As Thou has been Thou forever wilt be.

Great is Thy faithfulness, great is Thy faithfulness
Morning by morning new mercies I see
All I have needed Thy hands hath provided
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me

Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth
Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide
Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow
Blessings all mine with ten thousand beside.

Arise & Be Comforted- Watermark
Arise, and be comforted, for the Lord
He is good to the weary,
Even the young heart can tire and fall
But He knows them all
For the Lord, He will renew their strength
And they will soar on wings as eagles
And they will run and never grow weary
They will walk and not grow faint
For the Lord, He is good.

Lift your eyes to the heavens
For the Creator is living in you
Come surrender as you are, and know that you'll never stray too far
Let His power within you heal your heart
Lift your eyes to spacious skies
Let Him chart your way of flight
Spread your wings and fly
For the Lord, He is good.