Saturday, March 29, 2008

In Loving Memory

This past Wednesday, March 26, 2008, my beloved high school math teacher and long-time friend, J.J. Marks, went home to be with the Lord, along with her unborn little girl.  J.J. died from complications with her pregnancy, which was 8 months along.  She got a severe infection from strep, which spread through her whole body.  Additionally, the placenta separated from the uterine wall, killing the baby.  She wasn't feeling well Monday or Tuesday, and Tuesday night she started throwing up and hemorrhaging.  She went to the doctor Wednesday morning and he couldn't detect a fetal heartbeat, so they took her in for an emergency C-section.  When they opened her up for the surgery, her blood pressure plummeted, and they found a massive infection that had spread throughout her whole body.  They couldn't do anything for her.  Her husband was in Mexico at the time on a mission trip, and they flew him back over the border.  From what I heard, he didn't know about J.J. when he landed.

It's been tough for all of us that knew her and loved her.  She was the only person I ever knew that could actually make calculus fun.  I've known her practically my whole life.  When I was little, she had my dad for a teacher in high school, and she babysat me a few times.  At that time, I was absolutely obsessed with "Beauty and the Beast," and she gave me a huge "Beauty and the Beast" poster that hung in my room until I got into high school.  At school, I always called her Mrs. Marks, but to me, inside, she was just J.J.  My sixth grade track and basketball coach, the woman that would take me home every so often, the teacher that I got to beat at trivia my senior year of high school.  I loved her so much... even though I didn't always show it very well.  And I know she loved me too... which is what makes this so hard.

She impacted a lot of people in her short time on earth (she was only 32 when she died).  A bunch of my friends and I got together and swapped stories about her.  I wish I could remember more.  She was fun, sarcastic, crazy, cool, smart... and most of all she loved the Lord.

This time has been especially hard for her family, her mom and dad and sister, and especially her husband and young son Jonathan (who is only 3).  Jonathan doesn't understand what's happening, and he's not going to have many memories of his mother.

The funeral was today.  They had it at First Baptist Dallas, where she went to church.  The crazy thing is, that place was completely packed out with students, friends, family... and it's a big sanctuary.  At the viewing last night, it took 4 hours to get everyone through the line.  That's how much she impacted those of us that knew her.

It's still hard to believe she's gone.  At the viewing last night, I kept expecting her to pop up and say "Surprise!  Just kidding!"  But she didn't.  And it's taking some time to process everything.  I feel like I've been in a fog or flying on autopilot for the past three days, ever since I found out Wednesday night.  She was so young, so full of life, so in love with her husband and son and Savior, and so dedicated to her students.  She would tutor some of the people that graduated with me in their calculus and math classes, and she offered to tutor me in statistics last semester.  I cared about her so much.  Yesterday at the viewing, her husband saw me walk in and grabbed me in a big bear hug, and told me that she thought the world of me.  Today at the graveside service, Jeanie (her sister) handed me a rose from the coffin and told me that she would have wanted me to have it.  Her mom grabbed me in a big hug and told me that J.J. loved me so much.  All these things keep rolling around in my head... and it's so hard to process it.

I know that she's with Jesus.  She gets to see every day what I only long to see, and what I can only dream about.  She gets to worship her Savior all day long, for all eternity.  I know she wouldn't want us to be sad, because she's not sad.  She's free from pain and suffering and whiny students that complain about calculus.  And she finally knows how much she was loved.  Heaven got a little sweeter on Wednesday when she and that gorgeous little Tanya showed up at the door.  I know that I can rest my hope in the fact that I will see her again someday, and she'll be there to greet me when I go up there.  It only makes me long for heaven that much more.

Please, be in prayer for her husband and son.  He's really strong now, but he will probably have his breakdown pretty soon.  Her parents and sister need your prayers too.  Be especially in prayer for her students and the teachers and administration at OCS as they try to deal with this loss.  I heard some of the students won't even go into her classroom.  It caught everyone off guard... and everyone is trying to grieve now.

I found this verse on Thursday when I was still trying to process everything, and I want to leave you with it.  "When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles.  The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit."- Psalm 34:17-18.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Eretz Israel

I spent Spring Break in the "Holy Land", the land of the Bible, of Jesus and His disciples, of a unique history and tradition. It was absolutely amazing. It's hard to describe the trip to someone that didn't go, because God taught us all something unique while we were there. I guess, I can just suffice to say that it was amazing. Awesome. Inspiring. Incredible. Once-in-a-lifetime.

Friday afternoon we boarded a flight to Atlanta to catch our connecting flight to Tel-Aviv. Our flight from Dallas was delayed for about an hour and a half, so when we finally landed in Atlanta we had about 30 minutes to get to our flight. Which was, of course, on the other end of the airport. Four terminals away. And, of course, when we landed our arrival gate was taken, so we had to wait for about 15 minutes on the tarmac for another gate to open. When the door finally open, we dashed out of the plane and literally ran down the hall, our carry-on bags swinging behind us. Our gate was at the far end of the terminal, so we ran down the hall to the escalator and barely hopped the train to the next terminals. We finally reached Terminal E, where our connecting flight was, and we sprinted up the escalator, huffing and puffing along the way. The airline sent 2 carts for us, so we all hopped on one, but our combined body weight was too much for it. The cart scraped bottom several times before it just stopped at the end of our hall, and our gate was at the other end of the hall. We said, "It's okay, we'll just run from here," and jumped out of the cart and sprinted to the end of the hall. Fortunately, all of us made it in one piece, and we settled down for the 12-hour plane ride.

We landed in Tel Aviv at about 8 p.m., Israel time, almost 1 p.m. Dallas time. We deboarded the plane and made our way through security (Israeli security is insane) to passport control. When I got up there, they asked me a bunch of questions and then made me wait next to the booth. The lady took my passport and boarding pass and handed it to another security guard, who made me wait in a room next to a huge computer room. By this time, I was confused, scared, tired, in a lousy mood, and all I wanted to do was go to bed. I sat down and watched the soccer game on the television in the corner, and two other ladies came in and sat opposite me. They started talking, and I finally figured out that it was because we had military connections. About 10 minutes later, they came back and handed me my passport and a gate pass. I said "Thank you," grabbed my bag and walked out the door. When I met everyone on the other side of the gate, they all cheered for me and handed me my checked luggage. Everyone asked me if I was okay, and I think they saw in my face that I was pretty freaked out. The whole time I had tried hard not to cry, and finally, the tears started coming down my face, which embarrassed me even more! But then everything was okay, and we headed out on our tour. And I will never, ever forget it.

It's hard to describe exactly where we went because we pretty much went everywhere. We visited Nazareth, Bet She'an, Megiddo, Caesarea Philippi, the Jordan River, pretty much every major site in Jerusalem, the Dead Sea, Masada, Qumran, Capernaum... and that's just off the top of my head. It was amazing to be able to walk in the places that Jesus walked, to see some of the things that He saw. It was so cool to kneel in the Garden of Gethsemane, listening to the sounds of traffic and realizing that Jesus suffered so much in that garden for my sin, and even if I was the only one in the world that needed it, He still would have done it because He loves me and because through His sacrifice, my life now is supposed to glorify God. It was surreal to walk into the Garden Tomb and see that He's not there, because He rose in victory over death. It was sobering to walk through the Holocaust Museum and see all the horrible, unspeakable things that Hitler did to the Jews. It was awesome to sit at the Church of the Beatitudes, and imagine what it would have been like to hear Jesus speaking the Sermon on the Mount.

One of my favorite parts of the trip was to be able to see how the Israelis live now. I think sometimes as Americans we view Israel as this ancient land, and people still live like they did in the time of Christ. But that's not true at all. Jerusalem and Tel-Aviv, in particular, are very modern cities. Their citizens take buses to their jobs, or they have cable and running hot water, or they have satellite, and they have cell phones. The only ones that don't necessarily have some of this stuff are the Orthodox Jews, and even then they are very modern.

I also liked being able to see them live out their culture and beliefs. When we were in Jerusalem, we saw several bar-mitzvahs at the Wailing Wall, and we even saw one party in our hotel. They were dancing and laughing, and really having a blast. And the party went on for hours. It was so cool... and we really wanted to join in, but I don't think they would have appreciated it too much. The craziest thing was being there on Shabbat, or Sabbath. When I woke up on Saturday, I looked out the window to observe what was going on down there, and I didn't see a thing. No cars, no people... just empty streets. It was so cool. They take the command to keep the Sabbath holy seriously. Most shops closed Friday afternoon around 3 or 4 in the afternoon. Sometimes I wish we took our holy days that seriously.

Another thing that was really cool was seeing that, in reality, Israel and the places where Jesus walked are just ordinary places. Nazareth was really nothing special. The Sea of Galilee was just a regular lake (though it was absolutely beautiful). Jerusalem, with all its rich history, was just a city like Washington, D.C., or Rome. The thing that made them special was the fact that Jesus was there, and the fact that God did something extraordinary. My friend John and I were talking when we got back (it was him that really made me think about this), and he said that it really made him think about what that means in our lives. The Bible is full of examples of God taking ordinary, fallen men and turning them into something extraordinary to fulfill His purposes. If God can do that with a place like Israel, or people like Peter or John or Gideon, He can certainly do that with me.

It also hit me pretty hard how much they have had to struggle for their survival as a nation. When we traveled north to Caesarea Philippi, we passed through mine fields and bombed-out villages near the border with Lebanon, remains from the war a couple of years ago with Hezbollah. Then in Jerusalem, we passed the hill where the paratroopers landed in 1967 in the Six Day War and pushed the Jordanians out of Jerusalem and eventually most of Israel. We passed three layers of barbed wire fences on the border with the West Bank area, and our guide said that they have regular armed patrols there. On the Temple Mount itself, guards stood in full riot gear with M-16s and Uzis. Then in the Holocaust Museum, we saw how Hitler cut deep into the flesh of the Jewish people when he murdered 6 million people, including 1.5 million children. It's a huge blow to realize how much Satan has been after the Jews in the past 2,000 years since Christ ascended into heaven. Since coming into existence in 1948, they have been in constant war. That's nearly 60 years of war. And yet, God continues to perform miracles in their nation, especially in the Six Day War.

The thing that God did the most with me, however, was show me the passion He feels for Israel. While I was there, it really hit me hard that I am "grafted into" the kingdom. Israel is God's chosen people. He revealed Himself through them, Jesus revealed Himself through them, and He is their Messiah. Jesus Himself said that He came to the Jews, so that they don't have to live under the law anymore. It's only through His grace that He allows the Gentiles to come into His kingdom, to be grafted in. I think a lot of times the church in particular forgets about this aspect. While I was there, I read Romans 9-11, where Paul talks about his passion for the Jews to come to a saving knowledge of Jesus. And for the first time in my life, I really felt that passion, that desire to see them finally recognize their Messiah, the one that came for them. For the first time, I realized that I have been taken from where I naturally belong and grafted into the Root of Jesse, a place that belonged to the Jews in the first place. I think many times I've been arrogant to them, thinking "They rejected Christ, so they're nothing really special." But it's not true at all. They are a very special people, chosen by God to do a great work in the world. It is undeniable that God still has His hand on them today. And, for once, I was really glad to be put in my place.

I've been back in the States now for a couple of weeks, and I must say I miss Israel like crazy. I miss being able to wake up and see the Orthodox Jews hurrying to work or school. I miss looking out over the Dead Sea from the heights of Masada. I miss looking out over the city of Tel-Aviv and seeing the Mediterranean crash on the soft sand. I miss being on the Sea of Galilee and imagining what it would have been like to see Jesus walking toward me on water. But I've enjoyed having a new perspective on the Middle East, and finding articles and books on the Six Day War and how to talk to Jews about Christ. The images I saw and the lessons I learned will stay with me forever.

Monday, February 18, 2008

God of This City

It's amazing how God moves. This past weekend was an incredibly shortened version of Passion 2007, which was absolutely awesome. Definitely an experience I'll never forget. And as much as I thought this year could be forgettable, it won't be. That'll teach me to limit the Holy Spirit.

Over the past couple of weeks I've really been struggling. My joy in the Lord had gone through a, well, weak phase. I'd fallen into a routine of doing "Christian" things. I'd read my Bible, or go to chapel, or sing... but it wasn't a passion that was burning in me. I missed that uncontrollable fire, that all-consuming desire to know God more and to worship Him on a deeper, more intimate level. On top of that, I got distracted by--you guessed it-- a boy (can't live with 'em, can't live without 'em, apparently). Don't get me wrong; if anything, by being friends with this boy, I've had to reexamine much of what I've believed in my whole life, because he challenges me to think beyond what I've been taught. But instead of thinking much about God, I've been thinking about him.

Last week, I was presented with the most troubling question for my DCM class. "Who are you?" To be honest, I couldn't figure that out. I've been taught my entire life that I have no identity outside of Christ, that His child is who I am and all I need to be. And for a while, that was okay with me (and for the record, it still is). But I wanted to know who I really am, taking Christ out of the equation.

I saw that this weekend. I'm different. I'm a radical, because I believe in something higher and better than I am. I've been changed by the blood of the Lamb. I'm a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come. The songs spoke to me-- Jesus makes all things glorious, and He remade me. So that makes me glorious. I want to be different. I don't want to have an identity away from Christ, because He is my life-giver. I want to forever be known as His child.

You want to know what I am, taking Christ out of the equation? I'm nothing. I'm nothing even with Christ in the equation, because He is everything, but His residence in me at least makes me something. But without Him... my life is worthless, meaningless existence. No joy, no love, no compassion, no companionship... absolutely and completely nothing. It's a scary thought for me, being without Christ. Maybe that's why it's a good thing that my identity is so deeply in Him.

And guess what else I learned (I know, as if there could be more after that earth-shattering revelation)? IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT ME! All of this is not about me. It's not about my new life. It's not about my glory. It's about Him. Everything that I do, everything that I dream, everything that I am is God and God alone. And I can say that, coming out of one of the worst storms of my young life, I'm glad that it's not all about me, because I have failed time and time again (if you need proof, just look at my life the past couple of weeks).

Passion, for me, was a chance to renew what I found last year. I wanted that fire, that (hah!) passion, that desire I had found. Well, I found it. And it was beautiful.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

How Can I Keep From Singing?

I think this is the first time in a long time I have no idea how to start. A lot has happened in the past week... a lot of painful memories and confusing events. When bad things happen, I tend to get somewhat introspective and reserved as I try to sort them out in my mind after I talk to people about them. But something I've learned in the past week is that not everything can be understood. Choices people make, actions people take, and things God allows can't always be comprehended. And that's what hurts so much. So I turn to people that can say what I'm feeling way better than I can. And I generally find them in songs.

I don't pretend to know everything. I don't pretend to grasp why God chooses to move the way that He moves, and why it tends to cause us so much pain. But I find comfort in these words that others have written in times of distress. As I've lain awake at night, trying desperately to find some peace of mind, these songs have gently rocked me to sleep, knowing that I rest in God's grace, and our suffering lasts for but a moment.

Grace- Phil Wickham
The sky is gray, and the light is far,
The sea is a rage within my heart
I turn my sight to the crashing waves
I cry in the night just to be saved
'Cause I need eyes to be my guide,
I need a voice that's louder than mine
I need hope, and I need You, 'cause I can't do this alone

Grace I call Your name, o won't Your smile fall down on me
I'm cracked and dry, on bended knee
O sweet Grace, rain down on me! I need You, Grace.

I pray for dawn, a new day to live
I pray for mercy only Jesus gives
The darkness falls and a million cry
I believe over all there's a greater Light shining for us
'Cause I need eyes to be my guide
I need a voice that's louder than mine,
I need hope, and I need You, 'cause I can't do this alone

I Will Wait For You There- Phil Wickham
I will wait for You there, down on my knees where I met You
Give You all of my cares, find the grace to hold onto now
I'm calling for You
I will wait for You there, far from the world and its violence
It's left me broken and bare, I need to hear You in the silence now
I'm calling for You

And with outstretched arms, I will sing out melodies
And my beating heart will pour out a symphony
Hallelujahs in the morning, hallelujahs in the night
I will wait for You as long as I have life

I will wait for You there, down on my knees where I met You
'Cause life is a war fought with tears, but You are the strength I hold onto now
I'm calling for You


It Is Well With My Soul
When peace like a river attendeth my way
When sorrows like sea billows roll,
Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say
It is well, it is well with my soul

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come
Let this blessed assurance control
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate
And has shed His own blood for my soul

My sin, O the bliss of this glorious thought
My sin, not in part but the whole
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend!
Even so, it is well with my soul.

I Will Lift My Eyes- Bebo Norman
God, my God, I cry out,
Your beloved needs You now
God be near, calm my fears and take my doubts
Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in

I will lift my eyes to the Maker of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer of the ocean's raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You

God, my God, let mercy sing
A melody over me
God right here, all I bring is all of me
Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in

'Cause You are and You were and You will be forever
The Lord that I need to save me
'Cause You fashioned the earth and You hold it together, God
So hold me now.


The Light Will Come- Phil Wickham
To the one with the wounded heart, years of fighting have left you scarred
Wait, the Light will come.
To the one with the distant eyes, all this crying has left you dry
Wait, the Light will come. Wait, the Light will come.

Lift your eyes, the Sun has overcome the night
Come alive as we shine in Love's true light.

Here is laughter in all the tears, here is courage to face your fears
Look, the Light has come.
So rise, you daughters and stand, you sons, claim the victory that Jesus won
Look the Light has come. Look, the Light has come.

Lift your eyes, the Son has overcome the night
Come alive as we shine in Love's sweet light

Great Is Thy Faithfulness

Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father
There is no shadow of turning with Thee
Thou changest not, Thy compassions they fail not
As Thou has been Thou forever wilt be.

Great is Thy faithfulness, great is Thy faithfulness
Morning by morning new mercies I see
All I have needed Thy hands hath provided
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me

Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth
Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide
Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow
Blessings all mine with ten thousand beside.

Arise & Be Comforted- Watermark

Arise, and be comforted, for the Lord
He is good to the weary,
Even the young heart can tire and fall
But He knows them all
For the Lord, He will renew their strength
And they will soar on wings as eagles
And they will run and never grow weary
They will walk and not grow faint
For the Lord, He is good.

Lift your eyes to the heavens
For the Creator is living in you
Come surrender as you are, and know that you'll never stray too far
Let His power within you heal your heart
Lift your eyes to spacious skies
Let Him chart your way of flight
Spread your wings and fly
For the Lord, He is good.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Glory to the newborn King

As normal, protestant, evangelical Christians, we tend to sing the same Christmas carols every year. And as a normal, evangelical Christian raised in a Christian home, I have my set of favorite Christmas carols that I sing every year. The older I get, the more I look at the meaning behind these songs. After all, the birth of Christ is one of the most important doctrines in our belief system.

"Hark the Herald Angels Sing" has become one of those favorites over the last couple of years. Not because it's a catchy, beautiful tune, but because it is so doctrinally heavy. Think about the meaning behind these lyrics.

Hark the herald angels sing,
Glory to the newborn King!
Peace on earth and mercy mild,
God and sinners reconciled.
The beauty behind the birth of Christ is that for the first time since the Garden of Eden, God reaches down to man to save him from his sins. It's the basic plan of salvation. Christ's purpose was to reconcile man to God, something that man couldn't do by himself.

Joyful all ye nations rise,
Join the triumph of the skies
With angelic hosts proclaim
Christ is born in Bethlehem
Christ came not for one nation, but for all nations. The prophets foretold that all nations would be blessed through this savior.

Christ by highest heaven adored,
Christ the everlasting Lord
Late in time behold Him come,
Offspring of a virgin's womb.
This baby born in a manger is the Lord of all the earth. John 1:1 says, "In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God." God's promise to David was that his descendants would reign on his throne for all eternity. The virgin birth is also one of the central doctrines of what we believe. Isaiah said, "Behold, the virgin will conceive and bear a son." Over and over again Scripture emphasizes this virgin birth, which preserved Christ's sinless nature.

Mild He lays His glory by,
Born that man no more may die,
Born to raise the sons of earth,
Born to give them second birth.
Philippians says that Christ, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant. Can't you just picture it? Christ lays aside the crown in heaven, that he so richly deserves, to come down to this sinful world. His purpose was to die. Jesus said that He came so that we might have life, and have it to the fullness. John 3:16-17 says, "For God so loved the world that he sent his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him will not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him." Christ's purpose was to suffer and die so that we could experience eternal life.

Hail the heaven-born Prince of Peace
Hail the Sun of righteousness!
Light and life to all He brings,
Risen with healing in His wings.
Jesus said that He is the Light of the world. He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. He said that Light has come into the world, chasing away the darkness of our sins. He is the Great Physician, providing physical healing and spiritual healing from the chains of sin.

Veiled in flesh the Godhead see
Hail the incarnate Deity!
Pleased as man with men to dwell,
Jesus our Emmanuel!
The Word became flesh and dwelt among us. This Word, the Word that was and is and is to come, wrapped himself in flesh and dwelt among us. Our "God with us." God himself, here. It's almost too wonderful to comprehend. People sometimes accuse God of being unconcerned about what goes on here on this planet. But God cared enough to become one of us. Just so he could die to save us.

I wonder how much we really understand about the personhood of this Baby in a manger. This was God, wrapped up in the tiniest of packages. He wasn't born in a palace like he deserved. He was born into poverty. He knew what it was like to be one of us. There was nothing about him to capture our attention. But the blood that pumped through this tiny heart would one day be poured out to save all mankind. The tiny fingers that grasped his mother's had fashioned the earth. The little eyes had seen the face of the Most High. His ears had heard the praises of a thousand angels. This little baby was the great Yahweh, the Great I AM.

This is not something that we should just think about at Christmas. In the words of Charles Dickens, this Baby born in Bethlehem does not live in men's hearts one day of the year but in all the days of the year. Don't think about this little baby just on Christmas. His sacrifice, his love, his wonder, should be present in our minds all year round. Maybe then, we would actually live like it.

Monday, December 17, 2007

Another year gone by...

Yesterday I officially stopped being a teenager. Twenty years ago yesterday, I joined this world (nearly 2 weeks late). It's weird... I feel like I'm getting so old. I mean, I know I'm not, but it's still a surreal feeling.

I was thinking about the past year when I was on the phone with Audrey at the end of my birthday. I can remember last year, when I turned nineteen. So much had already happened. I had just finished my first semester of college, I had started making new friends, and I was happy. Things changed dramatically as the year went on though. I transferred schools again. I fell pretty hard for a guy that broke my heart. I finally found some direction in my life. I made new friends and grew closer to old ones. I lost some friends, and gained some friends. I cried a lot. I laughed a lot. And I learned a lot.

I learned a lot about the character of God in this year. It seems like all the hard things I've gone through, all the trials and tribulations that have happened to me, have revealed a part of the character of God. When I transferred schools, God showed me His undying faithfulness, and the promise that He would never leave me or forsake me was renewed again. When I went through the six month ordeal with Ben, God showed me that He is the Lover of my soul, my Pursuer, my Romancer. When I found out my dad would be leaving again to go overseas, God showed me that He is my Provider and my Father.

While this year has been unbelievably hard and emotional, I think I can look back on nineteen as a very good year. I've been blessed with so many close friends who challenge me to be better than I think I can be, who love me unconditionally, and who I can serve with gladness. I've just been blessed with life.

Here's to anticipating another rollercoaster year... so many ups and downs, but thank God I'm never alone.

Monday, December 10, 2007

May all your Christmases be white

This really is the most wonderful time of the year. Lights everywhere (especially here at DBU), hot chocolate, gathering with family and friends, and in the case of Texas, winter drizzle blanketing the ground. But I think this time of year is wonderful for a different reason.

It's about a young girl, maybe 12 or 13 years old, engaged to be married to a carpenter, who gets a surprise visit from an angel with what would seem like bad news. He tells her that she's going to be impregnated by the Holy Spirit even though she's never been with a man, and this little baby is going to be the promised Messiah. Her life is going to change drastically. Because of the culture of the day, she is going to be vilified, outcast, scorned. Everyone around her thinks she couldn't wait. And, speaking as a woman, I know all these things ran circles around her mind. But she didn't freak out like the rest of us would. She simply said, "I am the Lord's servant. Let it be done to me just as you have said." Think about the implications of her acceptance of this fate. She would be branded an adulteress. Jesus might be branded, for lack of a more acceptable term, a bastard son. But she quietly and humbly accepted that this was God's will for her.

It's about a young man, whom the Bible calls "righteous." He's just a carpenter, a poor man, trying to scratch out a living for himself and his new wife. But all that falls apart when she turns up pregnant and says that the baby is from God. What's a guy supposed to think? So he makes the toughest decision of his life. He's going to divorce her, without causing her any public disgrace. (By the way, that's love.) With this in mind, one night he falls asleep, just like normal. But this night is anything but normal. An angel appears to him and tells him that it really is okay to take Mary as his wife. This child within her really was conceived by the Holy Spirit. And what's more, the angel tells her that this child will save His people from their sins. And this young man gets up and does exactly what the angel says. Talk about faith. Joseph was probably in training to be a rabbi, and yet he "throws" it all away. In taking Mary as his wife, he basically said that Jesus really was his son, and that they couldn't wait until the marriage ceremony. He would be just as ostricized as Mary. He gave up his dreams so that he could raise a little child that wasn't biologically his.

It's about another Father. This one could easily see the state of the world. His creation, drowning in their sins, desperately looking for someone to save them from themselves. This Father had lovingly fashioned them out of dirt, knowing that one day they would choose their own selfish desires over Him. And now, because He deemed these fallen creatures so special, He sent His own Son to become one of them.

It's about a baby, born perfect into a sinful world. This tiny baby was the ruler of the entire universe, sitting in glory and might in heaven, one with His Father. This little child had fashioned the world with His hands, had breathed life into humanity, had led the people of Israel out of Egypt. He was there in the beginning. He was with God, and He was God. And yet, because of His strange love for these murdering and conniving creatures, He laid aside the crown that He alone deserved, wrapped Himself in their flesh, and stepped down from His throne to be born into a world that would reject Him and His love. He was willing to make this sacrifice to save the most unworthy people from imminent death. All this, simply because He didn't want to be separated from them for all eternity.

This is why this season is so wonderful. Two thousand years ago, the world heaved and groaned with the expectation of a savior, a military ruler who would conquer the world and bring peace. But they missed His coming, because He came in the tiniest of packages, born into poverty instead of the palace He deserved, born strictly for the purpose of dying for an unworthy world, born to rejection and ridicule. Just as a man brought death into the world, a Man had to bring eternal life. This is why we celebrate this season: Faith in God's promise, hope in His providence, and sacrificial love that conquers even the darkest of sin.